It feels like we're in a time of deconstruction.
The whole family has been sick on and off for the past month. We're tired, grumpy, and just need some rest. From colds to puking and back to colds again.
At the same time, the Aikido community has been falling apart. We've had the death of one Sensei in town, and politics and squabbling within the community have been tearing it apart. On top of impropriety, arrogance and disrespect. It's brutal -- this is not what it's about for me and it's time I thought about the amount of effort and time I put in to this at the cost of my family.
Work is good. I'm in a new position in the project group with all the non-infrastructure people reporting to me. I finally get to set things up the way that I want and show how good a shop we can have. But to do this, we're literally taking away huge dollars from out outsource provider. So people's lives are going to be impacted yet again -- many of them are the same people we impacted by moving them from here to there. I feel a bit like the angel of death.
I guess that you have to get rid of the old to bring in the new.
